Time

 I do actually sometimes feel like I'm rushing to get through to the next stage of life, but man I have been really really lucky this year

A lot of near misses, a lot of incredible people I've met and had the chance to work with

a lot of people who went out on a limb for me

A lot of feeling alone, a lot of feeling not-so-alone

a lot of looking back and wishing I had just not taken a particular moment for granted

a lot of wishing I could go back and stay there for a little while longer

but honestly,

a lot of grief too

and that was probably the hardest to sit with