peace

I love being back in lab and talking science and dreaming up ridiculous experiments

this is where I belong

Also our stairwells have the best sunset skies

My dad said that per the Hindu belief system by now she must already be born again, somewhere else, in someone else's body

She is a memory now, and that's just how life goes he said.

"That's it, that's just what it is"

So that is it I guess; I'm not quite sure what to say. 

I'm a bit tired of feeling so much; I would like to take the holiday break to sign off for a bit, from myself really 

Like you've felt enough this year, my girl. Just float for a little while 

Just spend hours on the confocal, go have coffee with Gunnar, dream up crazy science with Ryan, go do that very cool FACS experiment and OMG GO USE THE NEW IMAGESTREAM IN THE FLOW CORE, go on a long walk with Gelare, give everyone a hug, especially Natalie, pick up your diploma, revel in the fact that you've officially got two terminal degrees, youre officially a double doctor (!!!), go tap dancing, go on long runs, read and sing and cry and just breathe a little bit 

It's all going to work out 

You're not the most ideal human, you can't always do everything perfectly 

But you can cut yourself some slack sometimes