the wise heart

 I had the most wonderful conversation with the DNP at clinic today, who always makes me so happy. my day is always better when I see him. I dont know if it's his incredible life story, or his previous life managing a psych ICU, or his extremely poignant observations about human behavior, or his very practical buddhist insights, or his very impressive background in japanese fencing.

then I met with my mentor who told me about a paper on income inequality, and how people who make the most money in life continue to make the most money as they go through life because they are in situations where they have to continually work harder and be better and constantly outdo previous versions of themselves.

and he told me this to tell me to stop being so hard on 2019 me, and to instead learn from her, constantly keep going, and move past it all.

it's not that deep girl its not that deep.

tone down the drama a little bit.

he said that 2029 me will probably look at 2024 me and be like "what was SHE thinking, wowww"

and that i'll always keep growing into a better and more knowledgeable version of myself, and that everything will be okay if i just take a few breaths and calm down