I love you zayn

The gracefulness with which Zayn carries himself 

Every interview 

Every search for an imperfection, every celebration of a flaw

Every exhibition of a blemish 

It's intoxicating 

I love it very much 

It's gracefulness really 

The tact, an ability to move through life with ease and put others at ease

The ability to stay humble and kind even when it's hard to be kind

Especially to yourself 

I took myself out to dinner today and it was glorious 

Peaceful, quiet and lovely

Tomorrow I'm taking myself to a movie called Cities of the Future, and then a drag show at an local brewery 

And then on Sunday I'm going to a new workout class and the humans rights new works festival 

A new tap dancing class on Monday 

Somewhere in the middle of that I'm submitting this application for my future 

(But we just won't talk about that right now)

(We will ignore the subliminal urgency)

(We will just pretend that everything will be okay, I'll end up where I'm supposed to end up)

And one day it will all make sense