intern year

its really difficult to concentrate when all these intrusive memories haunt you
just when you think you're past the past
its like "haha oh hello not so fast"
I wish you were in just as much pain
I wish you'd reassure me that well
I have nothing to be embarrassed about
it's maybe the most miserable feeling
to sit here and fester and wonder
a festering frustration that feels chronic
memories of jack daniels and a gin and tonic

I wish one day, you'd reach out
just to say hello,
but then maybe id rather you not
because I know you'll say goodbye again